This week is the first week of SWOTVAC... the week before exam block where there are no lectures, no tutes, just study. Generally I'm pretty good with my study in this week although thinking back on previous SWOTVACs I probably haven't applied myself as much as I could have. This time though, it's different. This week is going to be hibernation study week for chemistry. I'm currently failing this subject right now so I do need a lot more than a pass for this subject. The thought of failing a subject actually terrifies me a little, especially the thought of failing chemistry. But I must remember it's not the end of the world if I do fail, I just have to do it again in semester one 2013, and it won't take any longer to do my degree. Who knows, if I do fail maybe there's some lesson to be learnt for me. I don't know, but I do have a good feeling that this week I will go study nuts. I'll update next Sunday to see just how much I committed myself to study. I really have no excuses, I'm not working all week (except Saturday night), I have no other commitments, just study! I must remember this isn't going to kill me, studying all the time is only for three weeks and that's it, three weeks and I'm free of this semester. I'm also scared of telling people that I failed, I feel like because I've spent so long figuring out what degree I actually want to do, I should be coasting by getting it done as quickly as I can. I think I will be fine studying for my other three subjects, it's mainly just chemistry I'm terrified of. All in all, this is a bit of a useless post, it's more just for me to be accountable to myself, telling myself this is what I'm going to do, this is what needs to be done, it's not forever, no excuses.
